Neicy,40, is looking for love in all the wrong places. A long term relationship with business guru Curtis doesn't satisfy her needs. He openly shares time and intimacy with other women. She isn't satisfied with her first love affair with another woman. The interracial relationship African-American Neicy shares with Caucasian Chris, is a first on many levels. Neicy's inability to come to terms with the molestation she has repressed since childhood sends her into a deep depression. By doing the work to acknowledge the source of pain and to start the healing process, Neicy regains footing and is ready to move forward in love and life.
Tired of playing the relationship game 40-year old Neicy relocates to New York from Baltimore, on a mission to better understand herself. She has given her heart too many times, without understanding just who she is as a African-American woman. During her childhood, an absent father and street loving mama, placed Neicy in harms way on many occasions. Molested as a child by adults who pretended to care about her Nicey had a lot to work on to get healthy.
Unable to recover and heal from feelings of abandonment and distrust, Neicy damages relationships platonic as well as the romantic ones. Using sex as a band aid for her feelings of disease.
Silently, in the back of her subconscious the need for truth about her purpose and connecting with her inner-strength produces dreams from her late mother. Neicy is guided towards the light that she hopes will free her from the numbness that stops her from living fully.
Relationships, with Curtis (the man she loves) is also sleeping with two of her girlfriends, Chris her lesbian lover and white girlfriend, being cast as a white woman in her dream role in an Off-Broadway play, random encounters to reduce loneliness, nor the sacred wisdom she gleans from her beautiful and eclectic, spiritual mentor Richard, give Nicey what she wants.
After 20 years, Neicy visits Houston, Texas. Reconnecting with her estranged yet beloved stepfather Daddy Riley is scary yet needed. Just shy of 80, Daddy Riley gives Neicy the puzzle pieces that bring the repressed memories from Neicy's early childhood, to light. She and Daddy Riley learn about themselves, family members, and the necessity of love and sex.
Deciding to undergo a strong bout of celibacy in exchange for self-growth, Nicey learns that she is worthy of far more than she has settled for in the past. She was learning to love the woman she was becoming.
Best part of story, including ending:
I really liked this story because it showed in detail the steps one may take to overcome self-hatred. Self-love is hot!
Best scene in story:
My favorite scene involved Neicy acknowledging that she deserved better treatment from lovers.
Opinion about the main character:
I disliked the amount of time she put into dead-end relationships.