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Anon posts on 11/29/2015 10:15:06 PM
I'm in a relationship with a girl for over a year. Shes had depression since the beginning and ive always had trouble dealing with her. Shes constantly bringing me down with her depression. Finally i found another girl. This is the first girl since my girlfriend to admit liking me and i just didn't know how to react. I told her i liked her too. I didn't. I liked not being with my girlfriend. In no way am i attracted to her. We held hands and made eye contact one time and thats it. As much as id love to grab her and kiss her i was still in no way attracted to her and i had to stay faithful to my girlfriend. I told my girlfriend about it to clear my conscious. I felt better about myself. But no matter how badly i try i can't help but wonder what would happen if i broke up with my girlfriend and went with this new girl. It seems like things arent getting better with my girlfriend. She still gets upset almost every night and brings me down with her. I was just hanging out with my friends as happy as i can be and when she called me i was frustrated with in minutes. When i was with the other girl, i could be myself around my friends. I could do what i wanted without feeling like i needed to be a role model. I never tell my girlfriend when i drink or smoke. She just gets dissapointed in me. I have to act different when I'm with her and my friends. With the other girl i could do as i please. I just don't know what to do. I think about breaking up with my girlfriend all the time. But she keeps me on track. My life just seems to be where its supposed to go ever since ive been with her. I would miss the all the great times i spend with her. I love her more than anything but theres so many things wrong. I wish i could tell her this.
Louise Poole posts on 11/27/2015 7:08:08 PM
I looked after you whilst you had a psychotic episode. I didn't ask anything of you. You're better now. I asked you to get me a sandwich and drink on your way home and you said no. I guess that's love?
anonymous posts on 11/24/2015 10:52:37 AM
Dear (name being kept confidential),
I love you. I have loved you since the first time you called me beautiful. And i kept loving you after you told me you don't date girls who are younger than you. I loved you while you fell in love with another. And then another. And another. I loved you when you swallowed 15 pills hoping to end your life. I love you now that you love me again, although i don't trust you. I love you, and i don't want to love you. You've hurt me over and over and over again. I want to hate you. I crave you. Why do i love you so much? Why you, and not someone else who hasn't given me a reason to hate them? Why you? I have loved you for 2 years, and i will keep loving you forever....
bongo posts on 11/21/2015 3:09:00 PM
I tested myself how long I can go without sex(I am a man) So far its been 10 years.
I now would like to break that streak and have sex again. I need to make sure I can get it up still. I am willing to accept women who only have black hair.
Is there anything you request of me?
G posts on 11/17/2015 3:28:50 PM
Yay, great, social anxiety. I'm so glad that SHE helped me through it, and now I've seen a councellor she tells me she has a boyfriend since BEFORE we went on a date, and now all I feel is so much less freaking confident and self hatful, like what am I even doing, why am I so bad at life, and I can't even tell her she's making me feel like this as I don't want to hurt her.
j posts on 11/7/2015 11:20:41 AM
Next time you ask me why I am stressed? why I have bags under my eyes? Why I don't go out? take a step back and think who you are asking. I am in no way shape or form at ease. I have a 2.1 GPA; Failing two classes this semester and currently over loaded with work and other commitments. As an introvert, the club scene here is ridiculously over rated. The girl I have serious feelings for, is either oblivious or just doesn't care. We talk everyday but she still hooks up with some tinder lax bro. Why do you think I get upset when you tell me you're going to a “Work out bros and yoga hoes” party with the lax team. Do you think I am oblivious? You say you're just friends but thats obviously not true. You say he's ugly and annoying yet you still sleep with him every week. he's a grad student that can't find a girl his age. This makes me sick. You still find it necessary to lead me on with snaps of you with barely any clothes on. I think its time to move on. It has been over three years that I have had feelings for you. Always out of reach. It is time to find a girl here that I can care for. I need someone to talk to with out the worry of whether or not I am annoying them. Someone to talk to about my worries and woes. Someone to love. You are my ecstasy, can always bring me up and a bad day. Despite the amazing feeling I get when I talk to you, I don't think I can take it anymore. So… Goodbye, I wish I could be with you but it's quite obvious that will never happen. I really wish I didn't fall so hard for you. So heres to what could've been. Goodbye, jen.
(if anyone just wants to chat, my Kik is: jbliberty)
Peter Plann The Fireman posts on 8/24/2015 2:22:54 PM
Stop playing the blame game. Jobs do not find you. You need to find a job. The best job in the world will fail to employ you without your own total willingness to be in work. There will never be a best time to get a job. The time is now. Don't hope to be discovered. Sell yourself. Ignore your feelings totally. The responsibility rests with you, not the welfare office, or potential employers, or your parents, or anything else, to get you into full-time paid work. If you think you can't, you don't really want to. You have a free will, and your actions and the results you get will always be a clear reflection of your free will decisions. Do not send out an unattractive resume, because that will merely be a reflection of your mixed feelings about committing to work. Understand that your feelings of inferiority about your worth as an employee ultimately stem from an unwillingness to commit totally to working - not the other way around. Getting a job is like completing a jigsaw where there is only you in the room with that jigsaw. It needs to come from you. Tell your employers what they need to hear about you to employ you, and stop giving yourself the escape route from work that comes from presenting yourself as an unsuitable candidate. A job application is a commitment to sustained effort and obedience to a potential employer. Let your application be your first day on the job, not an opt-out clause for your employers. Burn your bridges. Excuses are refusals to do the necessaries. Forget improving your education, or learning to drive, or getting married, or getting drunk, as your first step. Commit now to getting into work. Write a CV that shines, and makes people desire to employ you. It's not about hiding gaps in your employment history, it's about your level of intent to work in the first place.
Just accept that you have a free will. You are not bound by your circumstances. Your circumstances are an alibi for your level of willingness.
t posts on 8/24/2015 8:21:23 AM
RE: Cheating oil man. You're merely finding new places to drill, heh heh.
Greig buchannan posts on 8/24/2015 8:18:23 AM
i have cheated on my wife so many times , I just can't help myself. I work away in the oil industry and everyone cheats. Am I wrong.
EJ posts on 7/9/2014 8:15:03 PM
I have borderline personality disorder that's being left untreated because I can't afford professional help. I feel low and empty, I can't focus on anything. I keep having delusions of abandonment and I feel like this sadness has gotten into my bones. Like on a hot summers night and you can sleep, you'd do anything to cool down but all you can feel is the sweat clinging to your skin and itching, it's not going away. It won't leave you alone. That's what it's like, this sadness is eating away at me and I can't make peace with it. I think my BPD may actually kill me.
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